Friday, March 26, 2010 Ö
Posted by Bt @ 10:56 AM
Damn long never post already.
Nowadays got alot of problem with teachers and stuff like that.
NCC training isn't that tough anymore, no more motivation to go.
Lessons?
Very very fucked up. Every lesson either sleep or listen but dont absorb.
Sometimes I really ask myself what CAN i study for.
In the end, I just say fuck it and just continue playing.
If I retain this year, I'm going to quit school.
Try to find a job.
Be Steve Jobs!
Okay
My class changed place from 4th floor to the 7th floor.
I walk up everyday from the fucking first floor.
Before that, I have to climb up a hill.
FML
Something bad happened today. Eff My Life.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 Ö
Posted by Bt @ 5:12 AM
I just can't look its killing me
Everyday recently has been extremely boring and there is totally nothing to do.
Studying is not an option. :D
FML.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 Ö
Posted by Bt @ 2:33 AM
Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Today my mother went to school to meet dk and mr tan.
Go inside talk like 15mins then she start crying.
She said she never set any unrealistic targets for me.
Yesterday, she told me that she wanted me to get 80% for SA1.
Unrealistic?
Joke.
And turns out that the caning was unavoidable.
Niceeeeee.
2 strokes.
Win!
I think im obsessed with you.
Sunday, March 7, 2010 Ö
Posted by Bt @ 1:50 AM
Slut.
Why does everything have to end up like this?
Fucking whore controls my life.
I fucking fixed the computer that she bought. She repaid me by scolding me for not installing the games my brother wanted.
You know what?
Fuck you.
Fuck this hypocritical thing known as a family.
Sometimes i feel that im only here because my mother wants a tool to show off.
She wants me to get the best results.
For what?
For her to show off to her friends that she has a son that is good academically?
No way I am going to do that for the bitch.
The only thing that I think my home is good for, is the bed.
Now she scolds me for not caring about the family.
When have you ever "cared" about me?
Slut. Whore. Bitch.
Monday, March 1, 2010 Ö
Posted by Bt @ 7:48 AM
I'm so addicted to her she's the sweetest drug
Okay so it turns out that I did not die today yet but its just a matter of time..
I will never be able to sleep in peace until this matter is solved.
So.. today took the history paper before recess and turns out that i could handle it quite well even though I did not even study for the test.
Chem was a totally different story, for chem, i think pass already very good.
After the paper was over, all of us were contemplating to find dk or not.
In the end, we decided not to find him as if he wanted to talk to us, he would have called us out after he invigilated us.
Followed the "gang" to take some oxygen sticks.
I can proudly say that I did not take any of the oxygen sticks that was offered to me! :D
After that, ran after some bus then went to SengKang to eat.
Go SengKang eat alr then bus'ed with HuaXuan, Ian and Eugene to Ian's house.
Played with Hua Xuan's AWESOME SNSD TCG SHIT MAN!
He was kinda pissed with me messing up the orders of the card but i didn't really care.
After Hua Xuan went home, we went to Ian's house for a VERY short while and went home after that.
Im obsessed with shit that I cannot get. FML
Sunday, February 28, 2010 Ö
Posted by Bt @ 10:47 AM
Since friday when dk said "you will find out on monday.", I have been fucking paranoid.
Usually during weekends, I sleep like a pig until 12 or 1.
Then during this whole weekend i sleep at 5am and wake up at 10am.
My life is very screwed now.
I don't blame anyone for it, just feeling very fucked up.
My mother feels that i am a burden to her and men are jerks.
So?
Does this condemn me to the fact that I have to be treated by her in a different way?
I started to have my own thinking when I reached P5.
How come I'm in the best class of my cohort and my mother is still unhappy.
Then I finally realised that whatever I do will never be enough to satisfy my mother.
She wants someone whom she can show off to people about and not some failure like me.
Why must I follow the life depicted for me in your mind?
If I don't follow the path, I am labelled as a failure.
If I take the path, I will just be another one of the mindless zombie workforce that is out there.
Why am I not afraid of dk's caning but afraid of him calling my mother?
WHY?
Thursday, February 25, 2010 Ö
Posted by Bt @ 12:17 AM
Today is a fucked up day.
Intended to quit and do it for the last time today then kenna caught. fuck.
What now?
Sure kenna call parents, then i die.
Maybe I persuade DK not to call parents and make a deal with him.
Maybe not.
Fuck the teacher that is so fucking kaypo.
Fucking face kenna bang by airplane.
Fuck my life.
If tmrw I not online, it means that i run away from home alr.
GG WP
Brandon Tan
1995-2010 yay
